The past few days I have been caught up in a tornado of painful stories. Stories that the inner critic has been telling me for so long that you’d think I’d recognize them by now. But sometimes still they get the best of me. All of them amounted up to: “There must be something wrong with me.” I’m grateful that I have friends, inspiring music, abundant access to nature, and invigorating spiritual practices that help me remember the truth about myself.
On Tuesday night in the midst of this mental and emotional funk I asked a fabulous healing artist that I know named Amber Hines to sing her song “I am completely good.” In her living room a group of friends and I danced a gospel two-step to the beat of Amber’s drum as she sang lyrics that powerfully contradicted the stories that had me in a chokehold:
Sometimes I make mistakes.
Sometimes I make choices that just don’t work.
Sometimes I do craaaazzzy things.
But I am still completely good.
I just looked the word “good” up in the dictionary. Here’s the definition I liked the most: “of the highest worth or reliability.”
So today I am declaring it “There’s nothing wrong with me” day. Just for today there are no goals that need action steps. No phone calls to return. Nothing more to have, do, be, or attain. Nothing needs fixing. Just for today I am perfect, wanting or needing nothing more than what is already here.
The Indian meditation master Nisargadatta Maharaj said:
“Real happiness…is best expressed negatively as: “There is nothing wrong with me. I have nothing to worry about. After all the ultimate purpose of all sadhana (spiritual practice) is to reach a point when this conviction, instead of being only verbal, is based on a actual and ever-present experience.”
I invite you to join me in this effort of effortlessness today. Let this day reflect the truth about yourself: you are of the highest worth and reliability.
Perhaps more than ever before, be good to yourself,
Meditation: Take a few slow, deep breaths with audible sighs. Settle in. Let the inner environment capture your mind’s attention without pushing away the external. As you focus your attention on the rise and fall of the belly breathing or the air coming in through the nostrils, let “I am completely good” become your mantra.
Now take out some writing materials and reflect on the following:
1. Is there anything that gets in the way of your complete acceptance of this statement? What is it?
2. When have you felt like you were completely good? What helps you remember this truth?
Today, you get to remind yourself just how GOOD you are and let tomorrow worry about itself.
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